Although I joined the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints many years ago as a teenager it took me years to even begin to understand what it means to "live by the spirit". To me it's life on the edge, on the edge of this world and the world unseen.
Cedar Waxwing |
It can be crazy making at times. Like right now I have this feeling again... this feeling that it's time to move on (our home is on wheels, very freeing) however, I am so torn. I love our little spot here. As I write I look out the window and see eight finches on the bird feeder, humming birds swarming around another and several doves on the ground where I spread seed for them. The creek on the slope below reflects the trees on the other side. A flock of waxwings is peeping in the trees again. Yes, it's a beautiful spot for a nature lover like me. We've been here almost four months now, a total of close to two years in the Texas Hill Country close to our son and his family.
Black Chinned Humming Bird |
So why the inklings of moving? Not sure! This morning while listening to a conference talk as I exercised it came again, "South Africa". It's been coming up a lot. Right now we're broke! We've put everything and more into our nonprofit.
Life on the edge, the paradox between what is logical and what is spiritual. For me when a "thought" invites me to step out of my comfort zone I can usually count on it being from God.